Thursday, August 25, 2011
oh boy
have a 9am meeting this morning... i am definitely not looking forward to it since i don't have a good feeling about it.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
C'est la vie
It's been a while since I've posted here. I've been busy with work, little wedding errands here and there, and just doing other things. Things have been fine for the most part. Wedding planning is going very well. We sent out invitations a few weeks ago. Three months to go, time is going by fairly quick. There's been some unfortunate events going on that have made me very upset in the past few months. That's been bumming me out a lot. I am giving up with my family. It's too much heartache for me. I can't do this anymore. To be happy, I need to move on. C'est la vie
Sunday, June 19, 2011
6 Years + Father's Day
Today is Father's Day, and this past Thursday marked exactly 6 years since my dad passed. I honestly have so many thoughts in my head that it's hard to spill it all. Even though many months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds have passed, it is still difficult. I miss him so much.
Ba, it's been very different this past year, particularly these last few months. I'm slowly giving up. When I visited you in TX a few months back, I told you that I'm getting married and introduced you to Emmanuell. He's made me very happy these past couple years, and he simply loves me. I honestly do hope I at least make you proud with my decisions because I don't feel like I do with the rest of our family. Since no one has really congratulated me in person since being engaged a year ago, I feel as if no one supports me. It's tough. Since I am getting married in less than 5 months, I want to be able to bring him to family events. Unfortunately, that has not been the case. I just choose to not go because I am not leaving Emmanuell behind; he is part of me now. I do need your help, Ba. I don't know how things can get any better at this point. It hurts a lot. For the first time in my life, I'm extremely happy. I'm taking care of myself, I am paying off loans and other expenses, I have an amazing man whom I will be spending the rest of my life with. All I ask is for my family to support me and my happiness. For one of the biggest moments in my life, I don't receive anything from them. It upsets me, but since I cannot control their actions or tell them how to respond, I cannot do anything about it. For the time being, I have no choice but to surround myself in thoughts outside of them. I do not want to continue to put up with the drama and the issues. Right now, this problem is the main thing putting me down and ruining the excitement I should have for my big day.
I know you're watching over us. If there is a way for you to get the rest of our family to understand, accept, and support me, please help. I don't know what else to do. At this rate and considering how things have been, I don't know if I want them there on my big day...
I love you and miss you so much, Ba.
Ba, it's been very different this past year, particularly these last few months. I'm slowly giving up. When I visited you in TX a few months back, I told you that I'm getting married and introduced you to Emmanuell. He's made me very happy these past couple years, and he simply loves me. I honestly do hope I at least make you proud with my decisions because I don't feel like I do with the rest of our family. Since no one has really congratulated me in person since being engaged a year ago, I feel as if no one supports me. It's tough. Since I am getting married in less than 5 months, I want to be able to bring him to family events. Unfortunately, that has not been the case. I just choose to not go because I am not leaving Emmanuell behind; he is part of me now. I do need your help, Ba. I don't know how things can get any better at this point. It hurts a lot. For the first time in my life, I'm extremely happy. I'm taking care of myself, I am paying off loans and other expenses, I have an amazing man whom I will be spending the rest of my life with. All I ask is for my family to support me and my happiness. For one of the biggest moments in my life, I don't receive anything from them. It upsets me, but since I cannot control their actions or tell them how to respond, I cannot do anything about it. For the time being, I have no choice but to surround myself in thoughts outside of them. I do not want to continue to put up with the drama and the issues. Right now, this problem is the main thing putting me down and ruining the excitement I should have for my big day.
I know you're watching over us. If there is a way for you to get the rest of our family to understand, accept, and support me, please help. I don't know what else to do. At this rate and considering how things have been, I don't know if I want them there on my big day...
I love you and miss you so much, Ba.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
My 26th birthday
Tomorrow I turn 26. I've been very tired lately (w/ work and other things going on) so I didn't plan anything to celebrate w/ friends this year. Since I will be seeing the remaining local friends at an upcoming sendoff lunch I'm planning in a few weeks, I decided to go on a date w/ my hubby-to-be for my bday weekend.
My birthday weekend started off with checking out the new apartment I'll be living in two weeks from now. The master bedroom, master bathroom, and master walk-in closet are much larger than the unit (with similar floorplan) we looked at before. That made E very happy. A guest can even sleep in the closet! On the way home, we headed to the Galleria to walk around and shop and get dinner. E got me bday gift #1. =) We then walked to the Americana to pick up my free bday gift from Sephora followed by purchasing a sports bra at Lululemon. It was one of the relaxing days I've had after work in a while; it was nice.
This morning, E & I got dolled up (excited to wear my bday gift) and headed to Santa Monica to get brunch at Urth Caffe (one of my favorite breakfast places!). Surprisingly they had E's favorite fruit danish (even though we didn't see it in their nearly empty display showcase). That made E very happy today! (Oh the little joys in life!) Once we filled our tummies, we headed to PCH to go to the Getty Villa. I LOVE the architecture there! All the columns got me all excited and happy! It was our first time going to the Getty Villa, and we enjoyed it very much. I look forward to going back there again!!
We made a quick stop at home to drop off some bottles I bought from BevMo then headed to dinner in Hollywood. One word - YUMM. And, of course, I got my bday dessert to finish tomorrow. =)
Today was enjoyable and relaxing. I had such a wonderful time. I wonder what tomorrow will bring. =D
My birthday weekend started off with checking out the new apartment I'll be living in two weeks from now. The master bedroom, master bathroom, and master walk-in closet are much larger than the unit (with similar floorplan) we looked at before. That made E very happy. A guest can even sleep in the closet! On the way home, we headed to the Galleria to walk around and shop and get dinner. E got me bday gift #1. =) We then walked to the Americana to pick up my free bday gift from Sephora followed by purchasing a sports bra at Lululemon. It was one of the relaxing days I've had after work in a while; it was nice.
This morning, E & I got dolled up (excited to wear my bday gift) and headed to Santa Monica to get brunch at Urth Caffe (one of my favorite breakfast places!). Surprisingly they had E's favorite fruit danish (even though we didn't see it in their nearly empty display showcase). That made E very happy today! (Oh the little joys in life!) Once we filled our tummies, we headed to PCH to go to the Getty Villa. I LOVE the architecture there! All the columns got me all excited and happy! It was our first time going to the Getty Villa, and we enjoyed it very much. I look forward to going back there again!!
We made a quick stop at home to drop off some bottles I bought from BevMo then headed to dinner in Hollywood. One word - YUMM. And, of course, I got my bday dessert to finish tomorrow. =)
Today was enjoyable and relaxing. I had such a wonderful time. I wonder what tomorrow will bring. =D
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Busy week of visitors!
The past week has been busy. Two of our friends (also in our wedding party) were in town at the same time. On Wednesday night, we stayed out in the west side to meet up with a few of Emmanuell's grad school friends for dinner at C&O's Cucina followed by boba. Then on Thursday, we went out to Father's Office where I was reunited with my favorite beer. On Friday night, I stayed up til about 2am (I couldn't sleep for some reason) and ended up just cleaning the apartment since M was staying w/ us the following night.
On Saturday morning, we drove out to SGV to pick up L and headed to dim sum with other grade school friends. M came to meet up w/ us and got to meet a few of my friends. E went with M to help him pack while my friends and I hung out and went for some boba at Tea Station. A few hours later, we headed down to Gardena for kbbq and boba (again for me) with E's grad school friends. We also got to meet an adorable newborn! By that time it was sometime after 10pm. The three of us then headed to J-town for karaoke w/ M's sister. That lasted til around 2:30am. After we got home, we played a boardgame til about 6am. We were up for almost 24 hrs! E and I woke up around three hours later and browsed online til M woke up for a late breakfast before he left.
This past weekend was very much needed! I really enjoyed the weekend, thanks to L & M being in town. It felt like Wednesday night started the weekend! Looking forward to the next reunion!
On Saturday morning, we drove out to SGV to pick up L and headed to dim sum with other grade school friends. M came to meet up w/ us and got to meet a few of my friends. E went with M to help him pack while my friends and I hung out and went for some boba at Tea Station. A few hours later, we headed down to Gardena for kbbq and boba (again for me) with E's grad school friends. We also got to meet an adorable newborn! By that time it was sometime after 10pm. The three of us then headed to J-town for karaoke w/ M's sister. That lasted til around 2:30am. After we got home, we played a boardgame til about 6am. We were up for almost 24 hrs! E and I woke up around three hours later and browsed online til M woke up for a late breakfast before he left.
This past weekend was very much needed! I really enjoyed the weekend, thanks to L & M being in town. It felt like Wednesday night started the weekend! Looking forward to the next reunion!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Quick updates
It's been nearly a month since I've updated. Not too much has happened.
- lunch date w/one of my bridesmaids and her hubby
- dinner w/ some of Emmanuell's grad school friends
- wedding errands
- visit a dear friend's mom in the hospital
- watching the playoffs
- apartment hunting
- watched "Thor" (surprisingly good movie)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
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