Last night, Emmanuell and I met up with my bridesmaid, Sandy, and her husband for Ethiopian food. It was long overdue but we finally made it happen!
I really appreciated them listening to me share about the drama I've been facing in the last several months. It's been difficult for me. They were very helpful and sincere when sharing their thoughts about everything and offering their advice. I do have a big decision to make. However, I need to be happy. I have a feeling that whatever I decide, I will forever be blamed.
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Saturday, August 27, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
6 Years + Father's Day
Today is Father's Day, and this past Thursday marked exactly 6 years since my dad passed. I honestly have so many thoughts in my head that it's hard to spill it all. Even though many months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds have passed, it is still difficult. I miss him so much.
Ba, it's been very different this past year, particularly these last few months. I'm slowly giving up. When I visited you in TX a few months back, I told you that I'm getting married and introduced you to Emmanuell. He's made me very happy these past couple years, and he simply loves me. I honestly do hope I at least make you proud with my decisions because I don't feel like I do with the rest of our family. Since no one has really congratulated me in person since being engaged a year ago, I feel as if no one supports me. It's tough. Since I am getting married in less than 5 months, I want to be able to bring him to family events. Unfortunately, that has not been the case. I just choose to not go because I am not leaving Emmanuell behind; he is part of me now. I do need your help, Ba. I don't know how things can get any better at this point. It hurts a lot. For the first time in my life, I'm extremely happy. I'm taking care of myself, I am paying off loans and other expenses, I have an amazing man whom I will be spending the rest of my life with. All I ask is for my family to support me and my happiness. For one of the biggest moments in my life, I don't receive anything from them. It upsets me, but since I cannot control their actions or tell them how to respond, I cannot do anything about it. For the time being, I have no choice but to surround myself in thoughts outside of them. I do not want to continue to put up with the drama and the issues. Right now, this problem is the main thing putting me down and ruining the excitement I should have for my big day.
I know you're watching over us. If there is a way for you to get the rest of our family to understand, accept, and support me, please help. I don't know what else to do. At this rate and considering how things have been, I don't know if I want them there on my big day...
I love you and miss you so much, Ba.
Ba, it's been very different this past year, particularly these last few months. I'm slowly giving up. When I visited you in TX a few months back, I told you that I'm getting married and introduced you to Emmanuell. He's made me very happy these past couple years, and he simply loves me. I honestly do hope I at least make you proud with my decisions because I don't feel like I do with the rest of our family. Since no one has really congratulated me in person since being engaged a year ago, I feel as if no one supports me. It's tough. Since I am getting married in less than 5 months, I want to be able to bring him to family events. Unfortunately, that has not been the case. I just choose to not go because I am not leaving Emmanuell behind; he is part of me now. I do need your help, Ba. I don't know how things can get any better at this point. It hurts a lot. For the first time in my life, I'm extremely happy. I'm taking care of myself, I am paying off loans and other expenses, I have an amazing man whom I will be spending the rest of my life with. All I ask is for my family to support me and my happiness. For one of the biggest moments in my life, I don't receive anything from them. It upsets me, but since I cannot control their actions or tell them how to respond, I cannot do anything about it. For the time being, I have no choice but to surround myself in thoughts outside of them. I do not want to continue to put up with the drama and the issues. Right now, this problem is the main thing putting me down and ruining the excitement I should have for my big day.
I know you're watching over us. If there is a way for you to get the rest of our family to understand, accept, and support me, please help. I don't know what else to do. At this rate and considering how things have been, I don't know if I want them there on my big day...
I love you and miss you so much, Ba.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Drained... need sleep
I am very looking forward to this weekend. Why? Because I'll be staying in and will get to catch up on sleep! It's been tiring since the weekend. Emmanuell's dad was in town for the weekend (flew in late Thursday night and left Monday morning). What did we do?
Friday - While I was at work, Emmanuell took him to explore in Hollywood (wax museum, walk of fame, etc). When I got home, we headed out to Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles for dinner then went to bowl in Arcadia. I was too tired that I just watched them bowl.
Saturday - We started the morning with horseback riding followed by crepes for brunch. After that, we headed to Sherman Oaks for a couple rounds of miniature golfing before heading to Santa Monica to walk along Ocean and dinner at C&O's Trattoria.
Sunday - We had a later start (Daylight savings and Emmanuell and I didn't go to bed til after midnight). We stayed home to have breakfast before going bowling for a couple hours. After that, we decided to go check out the Arboretum in Arcadia. It was quite nice. We were there until the Arboretum was closing before we headed to Wood Ranch for dinner. Yummm, bbq.
No one was awake when I left for work Monday morning, so I didn't get to say 'bye' to his dad since he was leaving that late morning. It was a pretty busy weekend! Overall, it was enjoyable and I'm glad to hear Emmanuell's dad had a great time here. He plans to stay longer for our wedding!
I didn't get a chance to go to bed early Monday night. On Tuesday, we headed to Long Beach to meet up w/ my friends for dinner and didn't get home til about 11pm. Then I spent last night just cleaning the kitchen... So no going to bed on my usual time in the past week.
I'm le TIRED.
Friday - While I was at work, Emmanuell took him to explore in Hollywood (wax museum, walk of fame, etc). When I got home, we headed out to Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles for dinner then went to bowl in Arcadia. I was too tired that I just watched them bowl.
Saturday - We started the morning with horseback riding followed by crepes for brunch. After that, we headed to Sherman Oaks for a couple rounds of miniature golfing before heading to Santa Monica to walk along Ocean and dinner at C&O's Trattoria.
Sunday - We had a later start (Daylight savings and Emmanuell and I didn't go to bed til after midnight). We stayed home to have breakfast before going bowling for a couple hours. After that, we decided to go check out the Arboretum in Arcadia. It was quite nice. We were there until the Arboretum was closing before we headed to Wood Ranch for dinner. Yummm, bbq.
No one was awake when I left for work Monday morning, so I didn't get to say 'bye' to his dad since he was leaving that late morning. It was a pretty busy weekend! Overall, it was enjoyable and I'm glad to hear Emmanuell's dad had a great time here. He plans to stay longer for our wedding!
I didn't get a chance to go to bed early Monday night. On Tuesday, we headed to Long Beach to meet up w/ my friends for dinner and didn't get home til about 11pm. Then I spent last night just cleaning the kitchen... So no going to bed on my usual time in the past week.
I'm le TIRED.
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