december is finally here

i'm back in the west coast, got back wed night.  unfortunately, i came back w/ a full blown cold, didn't even go to work on thurs cuz of it.  i've been sick for a week now, ugh.  i think i got sick last sun night.  it was just a bad night falling asleep w/ tears down my face.  after that dinner, i just had a completely different mindset.  i'm not sure if i'll be able to get those images out of my head, i really don't.  i was completely disrespected, it was just unbelievable.  honestly, i will never ever be okay w/ any of that behavior in the future, even if i'm not present to see it.  the damage has been done.  that was just a rude and careless stunt, and i'd be stupid to forgive for that.  i'm not sure what will happen from now on, but all i know is that it has become a problem.  i'm not gonna put up w/ any of that sh!t.  ugh, this just makes me extremely angry and want to do some clawing and punching.  go away!!! 


w/ all of that added drama, i'm soo glad that december is now here.  altho i've been sick all week, just being w/ my babe just makes me sooo happy.  he's been taking good care of me, and even w/ the stuffy nose and moments of breathing difficulties, i enjoy every moment in his arms.  yeah yeah, it's cheesy (yuck, cheese), but that's just how i feel.  yup, i love my baby. =)  


so i got my xmas gift early... i love love love love love it!!!  i smile whenever i look at my finger.  days before our philly trip, i got some bad news and emmanuell took me out to cheer me up.  we went through 5 different jewelry stores.  at store #5, i started to grow attached to their styles and designs.  all i'll say is that it's beautiful.  he spotted it before i did!  the more i looked at it, the more i loved it.  i'm just excited and happy and in love, and i don't want anyone/anything to interfere w/ that.  honey, i love you very very much.  i can't wait for our first xmas together!  <3 <3 <3 


now i'm hungy.    

 

What a month

december is right around the corner.  i can't wait!  this month has been quite a month.  you can be the judge of the smiley faces and the blah faces.  earlier in the month, emmanuell and i joined jeannie and jerry for the death valley camping trip.  it was really fun, except for the coyotes and the wind.  it was a nice short getaway from the city.  very much needed.  for a couple of wknds, i helped my sis w/ her business.  it was tiring, but it was nice hanging out w/ the kids.  sma organized an office-themed kickback, which was really fun.  i miss them a lot.  haven't seen them in a long time, so i'm really glad i was able to go since i missed out on the 'cuz john said so' dinner last night.  a couple wks ago, my coworker got divorced and a former coworker got married.  even tho there wasn't a fancy wedding nor a wedding gown, it was very nice and entertaining.  i'm soo happy for them!  =)

oh yea, the news i was waiting to hear for 2 wks came back w/ sad news.  i was really upset.  that evening, emmanuell took me out.  he surprised me w/ cupcakes then took me shopping in glendale.  he bought me an early xmas gift.  i can't wait to get it.  it's currently at the jewelers getting a couple diamonds fixed.  that's one thing i'm looking forward to (hopefully the end of this wk).  i'm glad he was there to cheer me up and lift my spirits.  it was def better than just staying in and letting me mope (he won't let me do that).  i love him. <3

this thanksgiving was the first time having a significant other there.  emmanuell and i spent the day w/ my family.  he got to help with the dinner preparations and just enjoy it w/ my family and me.  i hope he enjoyed all the dishes we had - 2 turkeys, 1 ham, 3 trays of candied yams, 2 trays of green bean casserole, a plate of green beans, a pot of home-made mashed potatoes, 2 huge costco pumpkin pies, 1 home-made apple pie, hawaiian bread rolls, corn, and gravy.  yes, there were tons of food for just a dozen ppl.  unfortunately i couldn't pack any leftovers since we were leaving to philly the next morning.  we got our butt up at 5am the black friday morning only to go to the airport.  thanks a bunch steven for getting up early and taking us to santa ana!  our first flight was full but the connection flight was close to empty, which was nice.  we got to philly at around 7ish eastern time.  not much going on here (in philly).  last night was my babe's 10 yr reunion, so i missed the ucla vs usc game (BOO!).  the bar was cool. i def felt young.  i felt like i was the only chinese there.  i kept turning my head to the tv hoping that the football game would be on.  instead, they had a short class of 1999 slideshow on repeat.  sigh... guess what killed the night... oh, and pete carroll has no class!

to be cont'd...

crossing fingers...

i need all the luck i can get.  i really want it, but i'm nervous.  i'm hoping to hear some good news soon.

sigh..

the suspense! =(

still waiting...

it's been 24 days since my reimbursement was processed yet still not approved by my boss.  ugh. soo annoyed!

bling bling like no other!

i watched the lakers get their championship rings last night.  boy did they go all out.  more about the rings here.

the way we used to be...

Have U Ever Been Tired Of Ppl Asking 
How U Doin And U Say Im Takin It Day By Day. 
Everywhere I Go I Feel Like Ppl Laughin. 
Im So Stupid Cause I Let My Good Girl Get Away. 
My Life Aint Got No Betta, 
So U Must Not've Got My Letta. 
So Startin Today Im Lettin Go Of My Mistakes. 
Whatever U Wanna Say Baby Im Listenin Cuz I Kno

I Kno That I Hurt U
And I Dont Deserve U
And U Say Its Karma But No 
I Just Want One More
Give Me An Encore
Dont Walk Out That Door Baby

Just Call The Paramedics Cuz Baby I Wont Make It
If U Try To Tell Me U Dont Wanna B My Baby
So Dont Say That To Me If We Cant B The Way We Used To B.

U Complain About The Studio Had Me Stressin.
Weneva We Playin My Music Had U Guessin
If Im Out There On The Low
When All U Wanted To Kno Was When Im Comin Home.
Now Im Like Oh Oh
Got Me Lookin Crazy Oh Oh Oh
I Aint Got My Baby.
Jus Tell Me Whatever U Want Me To Be.
Baby Whatever U Need Shawty Im Listenin Cuz I Kno

I Kno That I Hurt U
And I Dont Deserve U
U Say Its Karma But No
I Jus Want One More
Give Me An Encore
Dont Walk Out That Door Baby

Just Call The Paramedics Cuz Baby I Wont Make It
If U Try To Tell Me U Dont Wanna B My Baby
So Dont Say That To Me If We Cant Be The Way We Used To Be


i heard this song and thought it was a really beautiful song.  i had it on repeat all day at work yesterday.

invisible

no one listens to me... on anything.
*sigh*